Improvement

I am actually making some progress! I have been working out as best as I can wearing chacos since I still can't wear tennis shoes. I have been slowly eliminating desserts and sugary foods from my diet and trying to consciously add in healthier foods. It's still not perfect, but I am finally making progress toward being healthier and I hope to continue in this direction! We'll see how it goes this week!

After licking my ice cream bowl clean....

It's time to get a handle on myself! So, I'll admit, I haven't wanted to return to this blog because I know how terribly I've been eating, and I haven't wanted to admit it. I did actually start working out again until I hurt my toe and had another excuse to stop. Well, my toe isn't healed completely yet, but I think I can work out anyway. I went to the doctor today and was not impressed with my weight. My clothes don't fit me, my thighs rub together when I walk, and my whole body jiggles all the time. Something has got to change...for real this time. A new month has started and it's time to get serious if I'm going to reach my weight loss goals. I now have one month to lose 10 pounds by October 1st. So here we go.....

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I'm going to start training for a triathalon with some friends in March, but I've got to do a little pre-training training if you know what I mean. SO I found the perfect program for me - "From the Couch to the Sprint" - a running program to get you started for training for a triathalon. If I can accomplish this training and then actually accompish a triathalon I will feel awesome! I really hope to do this and lose this weight in the process. I have realized that I can't do one or the other as far as eating well and exercising go. I have to do both to keep myself motivated in both areas and I have no more excuses. So, starting tomorrow, I will work out and eat well...let's see how it goes!

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SO if you stop by my blog, leave me a message and keep me motivated and hold me accountable if you don't hear back from me each day! Any motivation/encouragement/tip is always welcome!

Sunday

So remember when I promised yesterday that I wouldn't eat any desserts today? Well guess what...no surprise...I failed again. I couldn't help it, our friends brought us stinking chocolate lava cake with our dinner and I couldn't resist! Dang it! BUT ok that was the last time that someone was scheduled to bring us dinner and the cakes are gone so I really don't have any more excuses! SO new week = new goals...tomorrow...for real this time...no dessert!

Breakfast:

Strawberries

Lunch:

Sandwich: Cheddar, avacado, tomato, spinach, mustard on whole wheat

goldfish

Snack:

blondie with ice cream

Dinner:

Salmon

Caesar salad

1 pc garlic bread

Chocolate lava cake with ice cream

Dang it! I'd have a pretty healthy diet if I could just stop eating the stinking desserts! They're really the only think keeping me fat. So do I want ice cream or do I want to lose weight? The choice is mine! Maybe that will help!

Saturday

Breakfast:

Fiber One Cereal with 2%

Lunch:

Baked beans

1 pc BBQ chicken

1 pc BBQ tri tip

1 roll

1/2 of a 7UP

1/2 of a peanut butter cookie

Snack:

Sushi (left over 1/2 of 2 rolls)

Vanilla ice cream with strawberries

Dinner:

1 Pita with chicken and tzatziki sauce

Pasta salad

Cool whip

So I've been thinking...The only person that can make me fat is myself. No one else has any control whatsoever over what I eat. Yes, I can be influenced by others, but ultimately, whatever goes in my mouth is in my control. Therefore, the only person who has any control over whether or not I lose weight is me. So often I want to blame someone or something else on why I can't lose weight. These people always want to eat this, or this is in the house so I have to eat it, or I don't want others to feel bad for eating unhealthily so I will too just to avoid awkwardness. Well, my friends, that time is over. I am eating only for myself and whatever I choose to eat is what I'll eat no matter what or who else is involved. I'm tired of being fat. I'm tired of my clothes not fitting. I'm tired of saying "I'll do better tomorrow" or "I'll eat this now and pig out but not eat anything later" (which never happens, I always eat something later). Yes, exercise helps me to eat healthier because I feel better and want to eat healthier to make exercise easier, but I can't help that I can't exercise right now and that should not be an excuse to eat whatever I want. I can have control over eating desserts. It just takes a little will power and discipline and determination. All of which I can have with just a little bit of effort. SO, enough is enough, I am officially starting this healthier eating and WILL lose my goal weights!

Tomorrow, my goal is to not eat any dessert. I can make it one day, right?!!

Friday

Breakfast:

1 mini cinnamon bagel

strawberries

Snack:

banana

graham crackers

Lunch:

Sandwich: whole wheat bread, avacado, cheddar, mustard, tomato, spinach

Brownie with ice cream

Dinner:

1/2 crunch roll sushi

1/2 grasshopper sushi

strawberries

Thursday

Breakfast:

Maple and Brown sugar oatmeal

Strawberries

Orange Juice

Lunch:

Sandwich - whole wheat bread, avacado, tomato, cheddar, mustard, spinach

Chocolate cake with vanilla ice cream

Snack:

Frosty-cino

Whole grain chips

Dinner:

Gyro with grilled chicken, pita, tzatziki sauce, cucumbers, tomatoes

Pasta salad with spinach, tomatoes, feta

1 other pita

Brownie with ice cream

OK OK OK...I'm officially addicted to desserts! I've dropped sodas and fried food, no problem, I don't even care about having those, but I can NOT stop eating desserts....three in one day...gosh! I think right now my goal should be to gradually wean myself insead of trying to set such a low number as having only 2 a week. SO my new goal is to have only one a day and smaller portions. Then once I can do that, I'll move it to one every other day, and so forth until I can control myself and have only 2 a week. PLUS once people aren't bringing us meals anymore it will be easier to not keep desserts in the house where I am constantly tempted. Other than the desserts though, I am feeling pretty good and enjoying eating healthier stuff. That part is easy, it's the eliminating stuff that's hard.

Wednesday

Breakfast:

Fiber One cereal with 2% milk

Snack:

Nectarine

Lunch:

4 Graham crackers

Spoonful of peanut butter

Snack:

Bagel with cream cheese

Chocolate cake with vanilla ice cream (DESSERT OVER LIMIT)

Dinner:

Baked chicken

Green beans

Rice pilaf

1 Roll

Orange juice

Well I was having a really rough day as far as being extremely sore in unmentionable areas so I decided to have some cake and eat it too. I know I shouldn't self soothe or reward myself with food, but today was just one of those days and I needed that cake and ice cream! I did well with my other food choices and didn't over do it with the dessert, but I did however, go past my goal of only having 2 desserts per week. Other than that though, today was pretty good. I should have had a few more fruits and vegetables but I did have a lot of whole grains as well. I am looking forward to being able to exercise and am SO ready to be healed from all of this birth stuff...I could manage the lack of sleep a lot better if I wasn't so sore!